Living With a Difficult Muse
Still consumed with meeting my 1500 words-per-day quota for my Novel in Six Months Class with Lori Wilde at SavvyAuthors, I thought I would share more of my overwhelming frustrations as I continue to learn how to do this!
I wrote over 8,000 words last week, all in a state of pure terror. Every morning, I wonder where six more pages of writing is going to come from. Where does it come from? Did you ever wonder?
My muse is ornery, difficult, and uncooperative. Stubborn, too. She makes my life hell! What to do with her? Is there any way to train a muse?
I wish I was the kind of writer who can follow a schedule. For example, I say, I am going to sit here for four hours and at the end, I’m going to be done. But no! At the end of the time, yes, I do have something, but it sucks, and requires more hours of hairpulling and cursing and pacing all about the house to turn it into something resembling coherence. This is very bad for anyone who has any other responsibilities other than writing. It makes for a cranky, befrazzled person who feels like she can never get her work done.
I think there is a type of writer who is so gifted so as to be a natural plotter–who can envision the most unique twists and turns, who can create sensational high concept ideas. A person like this has a highly creative mind and the vision to carry their ideas out. There is also a writer who makes outlines and sticks to them. Why couldn’t I have a muse who works like that?
I am not a natural plotter. I am the wost panster-plotter ever! I sit for hours trying to envision, write down, map, plot out, storyboard what on earth is going to happen next to my poor, tortured characters. Even if I get some semblance of a shoddy outline down, alas, my muse changes drections on me, and it’s back to the drawing board again.
I have no problem with sitting here for hours. I’ve got that part down! But now I have to learn the habits of somone who simply cannot afford to take time for tangents and detours and endless redoings. I’ve got to learn to move.
Having a background in science, I reflect often on the differences between a life that depends on creative ideas and one that works with “facts.” There are more similarities than one would at first imagine, and I’m not really saying the two are mutually exclusive, (and science does require creativity and who said science is made of “facts” anyway?) but all that makes for a different blog post. The biggest difference I can see is that in a writer’s life, your brain has to generate the raw material that makes for the rest of your day. It’s your imagination that creates what you work on all day.
Sometimes, I wonder if stories are just born to be told in a certain way. Have you ever had this experience–you are rewriting or re-envisioning a scene. Maybe you forgot that you’ve done it before. Have you ever compared the new scene with the old one? I find that at times the word choices are almost identical. this always scares me in a creepy way. Again I wonder, where exactly do these ideas come from?
I’m hoping this all becomes easier. That if I just keep at it, I will learn. The great joys of writing are always balanced by difficulties, just like everything else on this planet.
In the meantime, anybody want to trade muses?
Learning to Write Fast
I am lucky to be in a course on SavvyAuthors run by Lori Wilde. It is a Fast Track Novel Writing Class that goes for six months. It’s wonderful, and Lori is a great teacher. That being said, the agony is that every day, five days a week, each of us has to turn in 1500 words of writing. If you do the math, that’s about six (ds) pages per day, 7500 words a week. If you are short or miss a day, you’ve got to make it up by week’s end. We signed a pact. Produce or else!
This is terrifying to me. In order to do this, you’ve got to be able to do several things. The first is, you have to have a plot for your book! You’ve got to know where you are headed to be able to crank out 6 pages a day! No fa-la-la-ing around, no I-think-I’ll-start-in-a-different-place today, or I-think-I’ll-take-a-day-for-research. Biggest fear: what if my brain is too little to wrap itself around such a big plot? My plot seems bigger than my brain right now!
I read on Lauren Willig’s website that she generally stays about 5 chapters ahead on her outline, and has a general outline to guide her, even though things may change as the characters behave outside the lines. Five chapters ahead! Egads, I’m a paragraph ahead!
You need to leave the perfectionism behind. This is by far the most difficult thing for me. The first few days last week, I had difficulty even turning the pages in, even though only my class can see them and surely no one cares. But they’re awful! Did I actually let the hero say that? It’s ridiculous! How to turn off that nasty internal editor long enough to turn my homework in? (Must close eyes and hit send button before one can criticize onself.)
Lastly, you need the research to be done. My book takes place in 1832 London, really after the Regency period. I’ve never written beyond the Regency, and I’ve never done a romance with a lot of historical intrigue. But how do I research when I can’t even get my homework turned in?
I’m happy to say I did make my word count last week, despite being on the road for 3 days and having kids home all week. I really hope I can do this, because what Lori is teaching us is how to write like a real author. It’s not enough to BICHOK all day–I’ve got that part down. This is where you roll up your sleeves, research, create, produce, and crank.
I know that completing this course will take my writing to a new level…if I survive it!
My First Blog Interview Today at Wendy La Capra’s Blog
Up-and-coming historical romance writer and friend Wendy La Capra interviewed me on her blog today–please stop by! Wendy La Capra’s Romance Writing Blog http://www.wendylacapra.com/
The Life of Painters…and Other Hazards
Don’t you love learning things you never intended to find?
I’m doing some research into medicine as it was practiced in the Regency period, and I had to chuckle when I came across this, which was written way earlier, around 1700:
“We read that Raphael of Urbino, the famous painter, was snatched from life in the very flower of his youth; Baldassarre Castiglione lamented his untimely death in an elegant poem. Their sedentary life and melancholic temperment may be partly to blame, for they are almost entirely cut off from intercourse wtih other men and constantly absorbed in the creations of their imagination.”
No, he is not talking about writers!
Bernardino Ramazzini, an Italian physician (1633-1714) is discussing the diseases of painters in his famous treatise Diseases of Workers, in which he astutely categorized the hazards workers are exposed to in 52 professions.
“Painters…are attacked by various ailments such as palsy of the limbs, cachexy, blackened teeth, unhealthy complexions, melancholia, and loss of the sense of smell.”
Ramazzini documented the hazards of mercury, lead, copper, and silver in paint pigments, as well as varnish and linseed oil. “Moreover, painters when at work wear dirty clothes smeared with paint, so that their mouths and noses inevitably breathe tainted air; this penetrates to the seat of the animal spirits, enters by the breathing passages the abode of the blood, disturbs the econnomy of the natural functions, and excites the disorders mentioned above.”
In the 1500’s, a French physician named Fernel discribed violent stomach pains suffered by a painter that required 3 or 4 men to press their entire body weight on his abdomen to help them abate. This particular painter unfortunately had the habit of squeezing the color from his brush with his fingers and then sucking it off.
These observations make me realize that people used their intelligence brilliantly during all ages; it is just that technology limits how close we can get to the truth. The truth is different for different ages.
Okay, back to creating! (And no sucking on your pens!)
News
I recently learned that my manuscript My Wicked Duke is a finalist in the historical category of the Cleveland Rocks Romance Contest, and a query letter I submitted is a finalist in the New Hampshire RWA Query Quandary Contest.
Yay for celebrating small successes!